Think (let tomorrow bee) - Sebadoh

i have regrets that don't really add up to much
truly, i think i've taken the shittiness out of old situations
though i may not have necessarily learned from those situations
i don't crucify myself for where they went wrong
however, i do have this one regret
i said it outloud the other night to someone
and though i don't regret who i slept with first
i wish i had slept with you
if you read this - and i'm not sure if you do and i'm certainly not going to be sending you the link to this post -
just know that so many years later, i still think this
and i'm still so thankful for the part you play in my life, however small it is now
i'm so thankful for all the music you have given me over the years
to me,
this is our song
i hope you don't mind too much

all i ever wanted, was to feel you closer to me

Choir Vandals - American Analog Set

when i lived in toronto
there was a strict(ly awesome)
saturday morning routine to follow
get up
go for brunch
go to the record store
purchase music
come home
smoke some weed
and zone out on the couch listening to said purchases
i remember coming home with AmAnSet's Know by Heart album
i distinctly remember lying on the couch at mine and allan's place on marchmount
yelling to allan, who was probably napping, to "COME LISTEN TO THE PERFECT PAUSES"
a bleary-eyed allan, comes scowling out of the bedroom - not a harsh scowl but deserved (i had a habit of waking up allan for spectacular non-events such as the ear-wig incident of 2003 which occured around 4 am one morning...)
while i played choir vandals for him and he looked at me, while i looked at him with an undoubtedly deranged look on my face whenever i thought these "perfect pauses" arose
"do you hear them? do you hear it? do you?" i would've asked him over and over again
and knowing allan he probably shrugged, walked out of the room, then spun around to ask me:
"do you think it might be the weed?" before slinking off for a smoke and a glass of pepsi
so guys,
do you hear them?
do you?